[RP]-Allakai’s PK Appeal

[Allakai]

BYOND Name: Allakai

Reason Banned: Character suicide

Admin who banned: N/A

Length Banned: N/A, permanent character kill until appeal

Appeal Reason: I’m not certain this is where I’m supposed to post this but I am finally posting it now. Please give me a moment to get my thoughts in order.

So I’ve been playing Citadel Station for about 4 months give or take. Maybe 5. I have enjoyed my time on. Yet my own personal life made myself agitated, upset, and angry with myself.

Recently I’ve made a stupid choice that made me incredibly spiteful, resentful and above all else: regretful.

That stupid choice was for my character, Sajiid Vihtori Al-Shakoor, to shoot himself out of a moment of anger and pure sadness, depression, and grief. I’m going to be honest a lot of things have led up this and none of it I am neither pleased with nor happy with.

I’m not a happy person in real life, constantly on the server and discord I feel like I’m completely alone and have very little people that care or appreciate my characters except for a very few. I realize citadel RP is more or less an rp server through and through, but I played to explore emotions, thoughts, and feelings as the very word of roleplaying goes as understood for myself.

In a moment of anger I let my own selfishness culminate into a stupid mistake that I chose to enact instead of sucking it up and dealing with my problems like I am meant to. I beg for my character to be allowed to be played again. Despite my stupid choice and mistake I ask for forgiveness to be able to play the character I enjoyed playing for 4+ months.

[MrJWhit]

You need to fix up your formating.

[Allakai]

Format fixed.

[HazelBailey]

Sooo, looking at your notes, the ban was never actually made official. Given the discussion that happened with you on the day of, and the fact an admin never actually PK'd you, (Or just never noted it), I'm willing to just say this is already approved.

[HazelBailey]

Yeah I'm just gonna put this in approved given the reasons I mentioned above.